One day I dreamed a dream and saw myself
in a scene that was almost like something out of Gone with the Wind. I
was walking up a long, tree-lined lane, and though I was ragged and
wounded and still using a crutch to steady myself, I was full of
excitement. I had just entered into the last stretch in what had been a
long and perilous journey home. Just over the next rise was “the green,
green grass of home” and my family waiting to greet me. Even there along
the lane, every tree was filled with yellow ribbons. And when the
breeze carried just right, and I had my good ear turned, I could hear
the music and smell the feast at the great party they were having.
Suddenly I noticed that another figure was
hobbling along just ahead of me. Whoever this poor soul was, I could
tell that he was in at least as bad a shape as I was. But even with all
his wounds, he had made it this far too. My heart went out to him in
fellowship, and quickening my pace, I hurried to overtake him, calling
out to him, “Brother, wait! Wait for me!”
He stopped and turned. My heart went chill
as all feelings drained from it. I recognized his face. He had been my
enemy, the very one who had inflicted the deepest wounds—wounds that had
made my journey so slow and painful—wounds that I still bore unhealed.
Not him! How could he be here too?
I halted my steps, unable to approach him
any further, unwilling to say anything. As he called out “Who’s there? I
can’t see you,” I realized that he was blind. Rather than answer his
plaintive cry, I held my breath. Soon he turned, dejected, and shuffled
on his way.
I didn’t have far to follow him, for just
ahead of us was a shining, glorious gate. The boundary that it marked
was as definite as if it were guarding night from day. Even though the
beauty of the country through which the lane passed was exquisite, what
lay beyond the gate was beyond description, but not recognition. It was
Home. Upon my seeing it, childhood memories seemed to flood my mind.
Every path and byway was familiar to me. The longing to be there once
more became an overwhelming ache within me. It caused me to totally
forget my reluctance to approach my enemy, who was even now standing at
the gatehouse, speaking to the gatekeeper.
The gatekeeper had his back to me. Still I
recognized Him immediately as my Lord and Good Shepherd, He who had
carried me throughout much of my journey, ministering to my stubborn
wounds. Just as He had promised, He employed no servant here. Still I
could see only my enemy’s face. There was light shining either from it
or on it. I could not tell which. Suddenly I realized that his eyes were
bright and clear, focused upon the face of the Gatekeeper. I realized
he was not blind anymore! Then I noted how straight he stood. Eagerly I
threw down my crutch and rushed forward. Maybe I too could be made
whole!
Before I could take more than a step or
two, I was suddenly aware of the Gatekeeper’s words to my lifelong
enemy. “There is only one last thing before you are ready to enter in,
one last question I must ask.”
My enemy! This person who had been responsible for my deepest wounds? He was about to enter in?
The Gatekeeper continued, breaking through my shock, “Are you a friend to every man?”
Taking his gaze from the Gatekeeper’s
face, the man looked steadily into my eyes, and I knew that he was
seeing me, really seeing me, for the first time. Somewhere inside I
trembled. I had known all along that I would have to face the Lord to
enter in, but my enemy?
His words pierced my soul. “I am willing
to be,” he said quietly. Healed and no longer blind, he loved me. Could
I, still maimed and crippled as I was, say the same? Could I answer this
one last question with an honest yes?
The Gatekeeper seemed to disappear from
between us, though I knew He was near. Nothing stood between my enemy
and me. He waited for my response with longing meekness in his eyes,
unable to enter in without my approbation. And just as surely, I knew I
could not enter in without him. My long-harbored resentment and
bitterness, or all that lay beyond this last barrier—which would it be?
Which would I choose? Why had I waited so long? How had I thought I
could avoid this moment?
My first step toward him was still
halting, as if crippled, but with each step my strength grew greater and
greater. I could feel my wounds healing as I reached for his hands and
then his embrace.
And as the dream ended, I saw us wrapped
in more than each other’s acceptance and forgiveness. The Gatekeeper and
still another figure stood with us. With shining countenance the
Gatekeeper turned to the other; and speaking my name in unison with that
of my former adversary, He said, “Father, these are my friends.” As I
awoke from the dream, the last impression I had was hearing the voice of
the Father, so long awaited, “Well done. You may all enter in.”
from page 111 of "He Did Deliver Me From Bondage" by Colleen Harrison
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